Monday, December 31, 2007

Life's little laughs and letting God go first

Ha! Laughing makes you life longer did you know that? My day has already been filled with little and big laughs, I want to share them with you so that maybe you can laugh too.

1. After promptly downing my morning coffee, I was pleasantly suprised to find an army guy at the bottom of my cup and a two year old grinning from ear to ear across the room.

2. Baylor was finger painting this morning and decided it should no longer be finger painting, but hand clapping!!! If you can imagine a toddler face covered with blue, red and yellow finger paint splashes...priceless. I didn't yell, I grabbed the camera!!

3. I managed to burn my knuckle, cut my leg shaving and run into the corner of the bed all within five minutes of each other. (not so funny, but if you saw me you'd laugh)

4. After enjoying a long hot shower, I went to put on my new men's deoderant (trust me, it smells way better and works better too!) and looked at the name on it.... it was called "men's stick." Now that's a hoot, rubbing that under your arm every day :)

5. I went to sit down for my five minutes of computer time this afternoon and was going to grab the carrots and thought to myself....don't start that diet yet! Then grabbed two cookies instead...I love sugar!!! I have one more day until I TRY (key word being try) to give some of my sugar away.

6. Last night after Baylor's bath, I wrapped him in a towel and he went prancing into the other room where is very manly father was laying and proudly proclaimed that, " look dad, I'm a princess!" ha ha ha That will teach you to push manly things on your kid.

I'm sure there will be more giggles to come since the day isn't over, but these stuck out to me the most.
On a more serious spiritual note. I was reading My Utmost for His Highest this morning and it was of course the last entry in the book. It talked about how we have to let God go ahead of us! I want to leave you with a quote from the book and have a great New Year! let God go ahead of you.

" As we go forth into the coming year, let it not be in the haste of impetuous, unremembering delight, nor with the flight of impulsive thoughtlessness, but with the power that the God of Israel will GO BEFORE US. Our yesterday's present irreparable things to us; it is true that we have lost opportunities which will never return, but God can transform this desructive anxiety into constructive thoughtfullness for the future. Let the past sleep, but let it sleep on the bosom of Christ. Leave the irreparable past in His hands, and step out into the irresistible future with Him!"

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Just breathe...

I've been thinking about new year's resolutions today. I know everyone does them and most of the time they're all the same...drop some weight, make more money, get my "six pack" back, have more sex...or maybe not. I'll enlighten you later with my list of resolutions, but thinking about that list made me realize how much I need to relax. If I could tattoo a word on my forehead so I when I looked in the mirror, something I don't usually enjoy (especially in the morning after not sleeping) it would have to be RELAX. Being a mom, I take myself too seriously sometimes...okay, most of the time. I worry about the silliest things and don't feel like the day went well unless my kids slept, my house is spotless and Lonnie liked what I made for dinner. The world will not come to an end if the house isn't clean, Brody only slept a half hour and the casserole for dinner was slightly on the rubber side. I want to be fun and I want my family to enjoy being around me and I want to quit stressing over silly things. Life is way too short for that!!! I want to not feel quilty about staying in my sweatpants until noon (and secretly doing the sweatpants dance in the kitchen) Instead, today I resolve to breathe more, relax and enjoy my children (and husband too!) They grow up way too fast, Brody is rolling over now and starting to crawl!! Before I know it, he'll be running (not walking, my kids go from crawling to running!) It's okay that my house is messy sometimes....and I let Baylor watch three veggie tales in a row and that Brody stayed in his P.J's the entire day. It's okay!!!

I did however make one heck of a carrot cake today. That, unfortunaly, is one of my resolutions...less baking, more veggies!! I have a baking problem, it's a stress reliever and something I've enjoyed doing for years with my mother.

Friday, December 28, 2007

S'cuse you

He may not be the best behaved two year old at play dates, but he's the most polite :) So after he tackles someone, he helps them back up and says sorry. This morning Baylor gently informed his father (after burping at the table) that he was "scused" Then he asked to be "be s'cused please" which translates from toddler-ese to "may I please be excused." So all of the nagging and drilling on please, thank you and excuse me is working! Now we need to work on the physical contact and sharing.

I absent mindedly left Brody and Baylor in the same room this morning for a brief second (bad idea) We usually play this fun game called "hide the baby, " so Baylor can't do any harm to Brody. I walked into the room to see Baylor sitting on Brody's head with his arms flailing wildly and a muffled squeal coming from his mouth. Brody was fine and Baylor said he was just "hugging, " his brother. If that is hugging, I'd hate to see what wrestling is.

It snowed about three more inches this morning (the road is still not plowed by the way...) so that makes almost a foot of snow and ice on the ground. I constructed a t-rex and brontosaurus in the front yard with some of the snow. They have attracted quite a crowd so I'm thinking of charging admission. It's fun to watch the dogs play in the snow because Macey is too short and the snow comes up to her neck and she tries to run but fails miserably. I looks like I'll have to take my two foot shovel out and start shoveling again!! I'm working on my abs :)

p.s Lonnie wants me to tell you what I had for lunch today, so I will. I downed three grilled/toasted cheese sandwhiches (yes, three) and tomato soup. For some reason he finds that incredible and I just find it spectacular...I love grilled cheese.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Dear Lisbon snowplow drivers,

Dearest Lisbon snowplow drivers,

I'm writing you this sweet note to inform you that, while shoveling THE STREET this morning with my miniature 2 foot snow shovel, you drove past my snowed in mailbox/street/curb four times and neglected to plow. I know you saw me because I was wearing neon purple eighties gloves and a bright yellow hat and I have a cute butt. I just wanted you to check your vision because clearly there is a section of street (yes, main street) that has not been plowed properly and happens to be RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY MAILBOX. I applaud your hard work and dedication to clearing the streets, especially in front of the bars, but wondered if you could shimmy your cute little red snowplow down and actually plow in front of my house. I now have carpal tunnel and a sore back from the hour of heavy snow lifting I did this morning while you watched from your truck....all it would have taken was one swipe of the plow. I mean this in the most sarcastic and sincere way possible, and while you're at it....tell the mailman he can deliver mail to us now becuase there is a nice shoveled off space for him to drive, no thanks to you.

Lots of love,
Snow shovel goddess

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Home Sweeeeeeet Home!

Oh, glorious home! (and in one piece I might add...thanks dogs!) We came home to eight inches of snow though and had to dig our poor Corolla out of the street. It was great to be home, but we had fun (minus the car ride and lack of sleep) seeing family and hanging with the grandparents. Baylor and Brody are sure spoiled with gifts!!!! Today we put away Christmas decorations, overhauled the toys/clothes/junk in the house and made two huge Goodwill bags. We came to the conclusion that we have too much "stuff"!!!!! Where does all this come from? (two guesses.....yup, the two grandmas) We also set up Baylor's "big boy" bed. Slowly and surely we'll move Brody out of our room and into the room with Baylor. He just has to start sleeping better at night (which could be another six months......grrrrr)

Christmas was great, we had fun at home watching Baylor find his new train set under the tree. Lonnie and I struggled to set it up the night before....we were both huddled under the tree in stitches because two grown adults couldn't put together a simple wooden train set. My parents came up for ham and taters and nasty cornbread stuffing (mistake on my part) We're ready to get back into the schedules and swing of things again. Baylor is happy (for now) with his new toys and he loves his new easel and wants to draw "monsters" all the time.

Thank you to our family for putting up with us and all of the marvelous gifts!! We're truly blessed to have such a generous and loving family. It was great to see all of them, even if it was brief. Ta ta for now...Baylor and I are having a Mac' n Cheese date at the kitchen table while Brody and daddy snooze.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Things I've learned....

First of all, I want to apologize to my fans for any negativity and grumpiness that may have been sensed in the tone of my "writing" Not to make excuses, but traveling with kids is not one of my favorite activities and using humor and sarcasm is my way of dealing with stress.

We're on our last day here in Mt.Vernon, Illinois and it's been quite the adventure so far!! I've learned a lot of things while down here in mullet land (sorry guys, I had to get one mullet joke in!) and I wanted to share them with you.
1. When traveling with kids, bring lots of Tylenol PM, earplugs and Veggie Tales DVD's (and a spare wooden spoon or straight jacket)
2. I overpacked...BUT it's better to be overpacked then underpacked...I think.
3. We are so blessed as a family to even be able to take this trip, we got to rent a soccer mom car (still don't like minivan's but the space is pretty nice!) and we stayed at a hotel (yes, all in one room, but they did it in the old days, we can do it for a few nights)
4. Lonnie's family is so amazingly happy and generous it's wonderful. Many of them don't have a lot to give, but they give anyways and are always thoughtful with every gift they give.
5. No matter what happens, if the boys don't nap or don't sleep, it's not the end of the world (even though it sucks big time)
6. All family (mine included) is like fudge...sweet but sometimes has a few nuts :) and I mean that in the nicest most polite way possible
7. Never give a two year old cake before bed
8. The true reason we celebrate Christmas is not for the presents or the lights or the wrapping. It's to celebrate the birth of Christ! Who was brought into this world to be a sacrifice for all of us sinners. We need to celebrate his birth!

It's homeward bound tomorrow! Hopefully the dogs haven't destroyed the house :)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Jackhammer Guy

If you have kids, then you know that packing for a trip is an adventure within itself. You have to be preapred for anything and the inevitable, "what if...." Like, what if Baylor spills something on his clothes (this happens three-five times a day by the way) or what if the hotel room is cold (need extra blankets) or what if Brody decides to have his weekly poo blowout and stains his pj's....the list of what if's goes on and on. Plus, entertainment for a toddler is a must in a confined space (such as a car) Yes...I know I'm not going on a 16 hour car ride like my buddies down the street :) but six hours plus stops is enough for me thank you. I started packing this morning and the pile just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I am a very organized person and had my list prepared last week, but I keep adding to it and Baylor keeps subtracting from it. I tried to pack some of his favorite toys, but he keeps finding them and dragging them out into the living room. I'm sure we'll get an hour into the trip and he'll start asking for Jackhammer Guy, in which he will have inevitably left on the kitchen table. Let me tell you a little about Jackhammer Guy (J.G) He came in a pack of construction guys like the army guys...little plastic yellow thingys. Baylor fell in love with ONE of the 50 dudes, a guy with a jackhammer. Now, we've had to make trips back to church, strip his bed and go on hour long search and rescue operations all becuase of J.G. It's amazing to me that this two inch plastic dude with a jackhammer holds such a special place in Baylor's heart. I'm thinking of making a special box for him or a neclace that he can wear around his neck, so we never lose him again!! Thanks Jackhammer Guy.

We leave tomorrow morning and will return Sunday night. I'm super excited because Lonnie is taking his laptop with him and the hotel has free high speed internet....yes!!! We have dial up, so it takes a little over twenty minutes to download ONE stinkin photo. So, maybe I'll get a chance to post some more photos.

P.S I'm publically apolgizing to Lonnie for the snoring post :) Even though the contents were COMPLETELY ACCURATE and I almost got a kick to the shin last night when I tried to "gently nudge" him out of sawing logs. I love you honey! :)

Sunday, December 16, 2007

The Snoring Monster

Baylor has this book called The Snoring Moster and I'm going to re-write the title to, Lonnie, The Snoring Moster. When we win the lottery and get to buy a bigger house with more than two bedrooms, I am almost positive that Lonnie will get his own room far far far away from anybody. This is not because he smells or I don't love him, it's because I do believe he resembles a freight train when he snores. It's not a dainty snort, it's a full blown eruption from the nose and the windows shake. I'm still in awe that both of my kids can sleep through this. If I were them, I'd wake up in shear terror of the sounds coming out of the bedroom! I've tried to gently shove him, when really what I want to do is beat him over the head. I've bought those crazy nose strip things, but he refuses to wear them because they "feel weird." Well, sleep is way more important that "feeling weird." Yes, I'm being incredibly selfish, but when you have a baby that doesn't sleep, every second of shut eye is precious. Granted, I am a very light sleeper...someone can look at me and I sit up straight in bed. He's had a cold the last few days and I've banished him to the couch ( I can still hear him though...yes, it's that loud) I don't think this is God's way of punishing me, but it sure feels like it sometimes!!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

More snow

....Time to get Baylor ready, boots on, mittens on (with the thumb in the thumb hole), snow pants on, coat and hat on....45 minutes....time spent outside: 5 minutes.....watching him fall on his booty on the ice and then laughing...priceless. It snowed again...did I mention I hate winter now.

Baylor made me laugh this morning as I had a flashback to my childhood. I wasn't what you would call a "difficult" child, just very strong willed. I did however, have this weird thing for tags and seams. I would freak out if the tag on my shirt was touching me and make my mom cut it out and if the seams in my socks weren't right or felt weird...major meltdown. This morning, Baylor had a minor meltdown over the tags on his shirts.....which made me giggle as I snipped the small pieces of fabric from his shirts!! (Yes Mom, I know this is payback)
We made cupcakes yesterday...which was an adventure in itself. I told him he could lick the bowl and I turned around and he had the entire bowl upside down on his head literally licking the bowl. I forgot kids take things very literal and then he proceeded to lick the spatula and then the counter and was going to lick the floor before I stopped him. He licks everything!!

It's Saturday...Lonnie is home...Praise God. What am I going to do with some spare time? I will tell you...shave my legs, take a long HOT shower, put my laundry away (yes, I know that is so exciting!) and eat the new ice cream I bought yesterday (triple chocolate....hooray for chocolate) Tonight is our Christmas concert. Let the band nerdiness continue.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Never give a two year old drumsticks...

...unless you want a fractured knee cap, dents in the wall and loud obnoxious pounding all the time. Okay, so I thought it was a good idea until he actually had them in his hand. He seemed to be excited about music and drums, so a band buddy of mine brought me an old pair of drumsticks...bad idea. First he played the table (not that it can get any worse) and then my knee cap. So if you see me walking with a slight limp, blame Baylor. I've realized that Baylor has totally become a "daddy's boy." He loves his dad so much and can't wait for him to get home. He wants dad to play with him and dad to put him to bed. He still loves mommy, but he's probably sick of me since he sees me all day long. There is still hope for Brody to become a mommy's boy :) at least until he's married....

We had to throw away all the milk/eggs/mayo products in the fridge since the power was out for more than a few hours. I swear it's a conspiracy by Wal-mart to get you to buy more groceries! I had to restock the fridge this morning with dairy products and eggs. I wandered into the toy isle and couldn't help getting excited about giving Baylor presents. We want our kids to grow up appreciating what they have and truly they don't need toys, but it's so much fun to look. Some of these toys however, are stupid and waaaay too expensive. You could give Baylor a box, drumsticks (not reccomended!) and some Dominoes (which I gave in a bought him) and he's be happy for hours. I think we get more excited about the toys than he does. We're trying for a need (like clothes or boots) a want (Thomas the Train and Dinosaurs) and something fun/educational (blocks/books/flashcards) It's so hard not to go overboard on Christmas, especially when you see the reaction and complete joy on his face when he opens a present.

We leave Wednesday for you can start praying for safe travel and sanity with two kiddos in the car...we've never traveled more than an hour and a half and the trip will take about six hours (not counting stops) We might loose our minds or an eye in the process, but we get to see family and that is worth the pain.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Girls have cooties

I've been trying to fight closing my eyes today! I've hit the point of no return with sleep deprevation. I think both boys know when mom wants to take a nap because the moment my head hits the pillow...someone cries. Brody was only up twice last night (much better than every two hours) and we got him some Pepcid for his GERD (gastro esophigial reflux disorder) and they also think he has ulcers in his esophagus (sorry, I can't spell) from the acid splashing back up. It's going to take a few weeks to heal, but hopefully this is the right combination of drugs. I hate putting my children on medicine, especially when they're this young, but he is obviously in pain and not sleeping because of it. I just want him to feel better.

Tonight is band night! Hooray for the nerdiness! Some people have bowling night or girls night....nope, I'm pure dork and have band night. My one night to get out, talk adult talk, put makeup on and play some music. No matter what kind of mood I'm in when I start, I always end up happy when I'm makin music....and banging on pots with spatulas this morning, does not constitute as making music (only to a two year old)

My wonderful friend Jen took Baylor this afternoon, I don't think she knows what she's in for :) But she has a younger daughter Grace, that Baylor likes tackeling or as he likes to call it "huggin" That's right Baylor, when you're in football someday...I don't think your coaches will appreciate you calling it, "huggin." You need to man up and call it what it is....tackeling! We've tried to tell him that wrestling and tackeling are just for fun and should only be done with daddy, but somehow he gets that confused with, "go ahead, knock that girl over" He's already started hugging the girls...we're gonna have to have a talk son. He just bats those baby blues and long eye lashes at them and they come a' runnin....but Baylor knows better, he just knocks them down. He doesn't know that he can't date until he's thirty and kissing makes babies :) Girls have cooties anyways.

p.s I want to apologize for my spelling. The only excuse I can come up with is that I'm an artist and I don't spell, I draw. I also don't follow directions well and that includes "proofreading" the "p" on the computer sticks because I spilled coffee on the keyboard!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

The Sock war

...she dashed right, I swerved left....she darted under the table, I kicked the table...she ran behind the couch, I moved the couch...she ran upstairs, I went to get the shotgun (just kidding) all of this craziness for one sock. My dog thinks that she is a sneaky booger and likes to eat strange things like Baylor's socks or dirty tissues (she has a weird fetish for snot...don't ask me why) Don't worry, the sock is safe...for now! Anyone want a beagle or two?

Well, we spent the night at Ma and Pa Koser's house last night because we had no electricity....of course Lisbon had electricity, just not our stinkin block. It dropped below 60 degrees in the house and that's when we packed up the kiddos and left. It was an interesting night, Brody was up every two hours (I'm blaming the reflux, we're going back to the Dr today) and Baylor kept waking up at every noise. I swear my parents were bowling last night with all the noise they were making upstairs. It's beautiful outside, but we lost a few tree limbs.

I've come to realize how much Baylor loves playing with me and when I find myself gettin too busy with laundry or cleaning, he gets angry. The other day he told me to stop cleaning and come play!!! That's when you realize the time with your kids is so special and short, soon he won't want to play with me, he'll want me to drop him off a block from his school! So today, the laundry waited and the dishes piled up, but I played cars, drew pictures of dinosaurs and ate popcorn with my son! Much better than chores anyday!!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Ice Storm

I thought entertaining a toddler with electricity was hard, but just wait until you take electricity away! We're in Lonnie's office at Cornell because we're without power....and heat....brrrrr. That old house gets mighty cold mighty fast. We thought Baylor could use some time to run around, instead he wants to draw on the dry erase board. We were hit with a big ice storm this morning and last night. It's beautiful, but the trees can't handle all the weight of the ice. Hopefully the electricity will be on very soon, or we'll be headed to North Liberty for some heat! I'll try to post some photos from the storm when we have power. Stay warm!!

Monday, December 10, 2007

All I want for Christmas is.....

....a toddler who doesn't throw fits and more than three hours of sleep in a row!! And of course world peace, my two front teeth and maybe a massage.

So Brody is still fussy and I can tell he's in pain after he eats. He arches his back and cries. So we are trying another medicine, hopefully this one will work. It's a little more tricky than the last one because you have to give it a half hour before they eat. So, night time is out, but during the day should work. It helps to reduce acid and help the milk go down faster, leaving less time to splash back up for reflux. I actually took the same medicine when I was a kid for my tummy problems. He may have his father's face, but he has my stomach.

I'm off to my first, "appointments" tonight. My parents and their neighbors. I hope it goes well, I'm pretty nervous about it. We also got our first winter heating bill....all I have to say is OUCH and I'll be turning the thermostat down and bundling everyone up in layers.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Snot Factory

Well, if you don't talk about your kid's poo, you'll be talking about their snot. Which is precisely what I am talking about today. Brody is a snot factory. Besides waking up every two hours last night (I didn't turn the light on) he woke this morning with boogers caked to his face, hair and was hilarious for me but I'm sure painful for him. I broke out the ever so popular nasal aspirator or as we mommies like to call it, "THE BOOGER SUCKER." It strikes fear into the hearts and noses of our little ones, they cringe when they see that enormous green bulbous thing approaching their nasal cavities!!! But it rocks...does the job quite well and despite the crying, I'm sure he'd thank me if he could for allowing him to breathe again.

I'm playing hookie from church this morning, staying home with snot man. Lonnie took Baylor so the house is quiet...WHOA!! Got to run, it's shower time...HOORAY!!!

Saturday, December 8, 2007

A new day

Greetings from Tantrum Central. Just kidding. It's actually much better today folks, because Brody is sleeping (must be the shots) and Baylor and I got to spend some quality time together. I am beginning to realize why my mother laughs and says, " you so deserve Baylor." I must have been a handful....actually I know I was a "strong willed child," as they like to say. Why don't they just say, "man, you were a pain in the rear kid."

Baylor has entered the everything is what I say stage. Like when I say, "Baylor, that snow is white," he's like, "No it's blue." and when I say, "wow, it's a stegosaurus" he lovingly says, "nope, it's a taradachtal." (trust me the kid knows his dinosaurs) But, that is what I love about his character and his personality. He knows when to test mom and when I'm most vulnerable. We've sat on the naughty chair twice today and got two spankings, but he is learning and Lonnie and I are committed to raising our children the way God wants. He did say that he loves baby Jesus today and that made me smile.

Brody is running a low grade fever from his shots and is super cranky. They think he has reflux because of his not wanting to nurse and arching his back. He was put on liquid zantc, which has to be the nastiess stuff I've ever tasted. We tried mixing it with breastmilk and he kind of drinks it, but when we tried to give it to him stright came right back up in my mom's lap. This kid could win a contest for longest projectile puking. He is acting like he's in pain, but the kid hasn't pooped in four days!!! I'm waiting for the big blowout shortly. I'm armed with oxyclean and tons of wipes :) Just in case you're reading this and you don't have'll someday understand that most of your adult conversations will revolve around you child's poop. What color it is...when it comes, how it comes and how you get it out of clothes. The harder you try to fight not talking about poo, the worse it gets :) So embrace the poo. (of course, not literally!!) Have a delightful Saturday.

Friday, December 7, 2007

One of those days

I've alwasy wondered how those mom's of screaming tantrum throwing toddlers did it because Baylor seemed to be beyond that stage.....until this morning!!! He threw his first big throw himself on the floor kicking and screaming and crying fit and let me tell you it was UGLY. My patience with the kiddo was already thin after a chase across the Dr's office parking lot and down the hallway when Brody was getting his shots. (He weighs 15 lbs now...with sexy thunder thighs!) By this time, I wanted to scream and pull out any exisiting we went to the Dean's for a playdate that was suppossed to be fun, but towards the end the spankin spoon came out and so did the monster of toddler. I couldn't apologize enough to everyone, but they assured me that they've already seen it and not to worry. It continued throughout the entire car ride home and into the house and then the kitchen and then the living room. It stopped for a brief second and then started again when I went to take off his coat....he wanted it ON! Now, Lonnie is on his way to a coaches clinic and I'm about to send Baylor with him ( I'm not quite sure they allow kids at these things :) It finally subsided after about two hours. I'm not even quite sure how to handle it. Do I ignore him and walk away or discipline him and teach him a lesson? I don't want to react with anger, but that was my first instinct. I had to take many deep breaths, talk calmly to him and figure out what the heck was wrong. I am praying it's because he was super tired from playing two hours in the snow last night with dad. Anyways, I put him down for his nap and went to consume much chocolate, that always helps me :) Lonnie is gone until tomorrow evening and my first "appointment" re-scheduled, so I might head down to ma and pa's for some sympathy and tea :)

Thursday, December 6, 2007

The smile that lights up a room

It's amazing to see Brody smile, but his smile just starts at his eyebrows and ends at his chin...his whole entire face lights up. He is such a smiley baby and even when I'm frustrated at him for never sleeping, all he has to do is smile at me...just like his dad :)
Baylor and I made snickerdoodles yesterday, he loves to cook! He also wanted to take a bite out of the pure shortening and eggs....I warned him, but the toddler won....and was totally grossed out. What's a little samonilla and clogging of the arteries? He placed himself in front of the toaster oven (that is his personal oven) and got the hot pads out and even a spatula and said, "Mom, I'm cookin...and it's good." What a character.
We're suppossed to get 3-5 inches of snow here today.....we'll see, I'm still bruised from the ice sledding incident, but I'm ready to send Baylor down a hill of nice fluffy snow instead of ice.

So I've started making phone calls to set up appointments for our new "business." The first two weeks are tough because it's a lot of time in the evening. Lonnie has really stepped up and is watching the boys for me while I call and go to appointments. I think this is good for me and my confidence and also for our family financially in the long run. I pray it works out and that my friends don't get annoyed :) It's truly me wanting to help them, not make money.

I got an area rug today to cover the big square in the living makes is much cozier and comletes the room...FINALLY!

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Phone Phobia

So I've entered into the, "working" mom category...well, kind of. Lonnie and I really thought long and hard and prayed about what we're going to do with our bills that keep piling up. We had the chance to sit down with a couple that works with Primerica Financial services and they helped us tremendously with new life insurance, debt solutions and even working on our mortgage stuff. They've already saved us a ton of money that we can use to pay off debts. So I was intrigued by the company and decided it would be a perfect way for us to make some extra money while helping people with their debt. We did tons of research and are very happy with the company and it's goals etc. So I signed on last night and I'll start training soon. I'm super nervous because I HATE USING THE PHONE, so I have to get over that, but this will allow me to stay home with the boys (minus a few evenings for appointments) and make some extra money to pay off debt!! I hope I can help people as much as they have helped us and that people will be responsive to me :) So you can look foward to hearing from me soon ! :)

Monday, December 3, 2007

Ice Sledding

My knees are butt are covered in bruises from our (Gramma K, Baylor and I ) ice sledding adventure yesterday. There wasn't much snow, but it was covered in a thick coat of ice, which makes a great sledding surface. (Note to self: Do not put two year olds on plastic roll up sleds without a soft thing to land on or a person at the bottom to catch) Baylor loved it and we had tons of fun (no stitches and only one wipe out....that was me) I'm still waiting for more real snow so we can check out the hill by the Lisbon high school.

I posted some photos of Lonnie when he was a baby....and then, he looks like his daddy! Unfortunatly, he does not sleep like his daddy. He was up six times (every two hours!!) last night for some god-forsaken reason. He's not teething, he's not sick...I can't figure it out. He made it the night before only waking up once...I thought my life was returning to normal...WRONG. The only things I can think of are that a.) he's cold (even though I have him dressed warm and snuggled in a blanket) b.) He's hungry...which is crazy, he at two hours previously c.) He just wants to snuggle with mom (which I'm totally okay with...just not six times at night) Please Lord, let this insanity stop. I can handle two times a would be nice, but six....NOT COOL. I wanted him to be sleeping before we headed to Illinois for Christmas, but it looks like that is not happening.

Today Baylor and I painted his Christmas ornaments that we made and know, the yummy salt flour ones that you made as a kid. One of them is so heavy, it about knocked the tree over, we decided against hanging that one on the tree. His train set came in the mail and we told a white lie when he asked what it was. I said, "it's broccoli" and Lonnie said it was "tools for dad." which probably wasn't the best thing to say....hello..the kid loves tools!!! We had to quickly change the subject and hide the package. We also got a package from Gramma Lila filled with fun toys and clothes for the boys. We are very thankful for everything she sends us, I think she is responsible for 95% of the clothes that our kids wear.

Oh yea...we have a mouse in the's go time. I'm gonna kill that sucker so if anyone has any ideas (that are safe around kids and dogs) (PhilD I know you do!! ) Let me know.

Friday, November 30, 2007


Funny how I look forward to Friday even though it's just like every other day. It's not like I get to take a break on the weekend, however amazingly awesome that may sound. I think it's just the fact that Friday means Saturday is tomorrow, which means I might see Lonnie a little more than in the morning and maybe I can escape for some time to myself. In college it was, "sweet, it's Friday, party classes tomorrow!" when we had no kids it was, "sweet, it's Friday, I can sleep until noon tomorrow!" now it's like, "sweet, it's Friday, I made it through the week without hurting anyone or selling a child!" :) I was hoping to coax Lonnie into having a date night for us tomorrow night, but it looks like we might get snow...and rain, and sleet and ice! I'm super excited about sledding this year, I'm all about freaking Baylor out with a huge hill and giving him a little plastic sled and seeing where he ends up. We had a great sledding hill at our house, except you ended up in the woods in a pile of brush or rocks. I only gashed my head one time and had one concuscion, but no stitches!! It's not real sledding unless you can bob and weave your way through trees and large sharp rocks.
All of my Christmas card photos are here and all of my gifts have arrived through the mail! I found out that Baylor likes to unwrap presents even though they are not his....we'll have to be hiding them until the big day arrives. He was more interested in what the wrapping paper came on than the present itself...I guess I should take back that toy train set and get him a box.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

What day is it?

When you wake up and realize you have no idea what day it know you need more sleep. This too will pass....someday Brody will like sleeping through the night!!! My arm hurts like crazy from the flu shot, but I'd rather have that pain then influenza. It's one of those looks-like-snow-but-isn't-going-to-snow-days....kind of gloomy and gray. I need snow to make December seem official...I'm not talking wimpy flurries, I'm talking 8-10 inches of the white stuff.

So Baylor has started this new thing where he grunts and gets all angry and says, 'ahhhhrrhg okay fine!" HOLY COW!!! Where did he get that from? Ummmmm that would be me when I'm talking to our dogs!! He sees me get angry at them for eating his toys, eating his food or peeing on the bed ( yes, I said peeing on the bed...that's a whole nother story!) and thinks it's okay. So the lesson that I learned is that I must control my raging anger at the dogs until he's out of the room. They say toddler's soak up so much and watch everything and I know Baylor does!! I just have to be more careful about my reactions to things, even if it's a simple grunt or groan in frustration. He showed us how to do jumping jacks last night on the bed, I thought I was going to fall over laughing. He kind of looked like a rabid monkey. We're still working on the potty thing, but he wants nothing to do with it and is actually quite amused to watch himself pee....on the floor...or in the bathtub...NOT the potty. I refuse to force him if he's not ready though, it's one battle I will not fight.

We're starting to plan our escape to Mt.Vernon Illinois for the Holidays. We're renting a minivan (go soccer mom!) and staying at a hotel this time for sanity's sake. It's great to be with family, but they can only take so much of us :) This way, we'll all get sleep...well, at least Lonnie and Baylor will. We've never been in one room before, even if it's technically a "suite" it probably won't drown out crying baby. Everyone is very excited to go though, especially Baylor.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

A glimpse into the future

I know it's wayyyyyy early to be talking about another kiddo, but I got a glimpse of what it might be like today. I watched Josiah Dean for a few hours while his mom went to the dentist. Granted, he was very well behaved and just played the entire time. It did give me a chance to contemplate adding another bambino to the Speidel househould in the future...key word being future. It wasn't too bad, feeding two toddlers lunch and holding Brody...then feeding Brody while they played blocks. It would be a huge financial jump car (little Carolla wouldn't hold three carseats) new house (no way in heck I'm putting three kids in one very small room) diapers, food, etc. Since it is in the far away future, if at all, prayer is the only thing to do right now.

We're off tonight to get flu for all...or not so much. Lonnie refused to get one, until I threatened him with gory details and made him feel guilty about the health of his children. Hopefully, Baylor will be okay...I know it makes your arm hurt for a while after you get it. I warned him in advance and he knows what's coming. We might have to make a Dairy Queen run after the pain has been inflicted. Poor Brody, all he gets is milk...wonder if you can make breast milk ice cream? Just kidding.

It's freezing in here...but this is the beginning of keeping the house at a chilly 60 degrees during the day and 58 at night to save moola. I have invested in some nice warm socks, slippers and hooded sweatshirts for all.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Could I be more selfish...

Many apologies. I read my last post and decided that I was being pretty selfish about the money thing. It could be worse and we have SOOOO much to be thankful for it's not even funny. We'll pay the bills (slowly and on time) and suck it up. God will provide!! We have a house, health, food on our table and we get to buy our family Christmas gifts.

So I'm finished with Christmas gifts...finished this morning in my underwear (like I said I would) after realizing they were on inside out and my socks didn't match. That my friends, is also a side effect of lack of sleep. It's realllllly hitting me hard this morning. I even busted out the espresso machine I got last Christmas from Lonnie. I did let Brody cry last night and he put himself back to sleep for another hour and a half (hey! progress!!) I even got to shower before 1pm today and use my new shampoo AND shave my legs. I was contemplating growing the hair long enough to braid but only for about two seconds. (not like you really needed to hear that information) Hey, the french do it...why not us Americans...think how much time, water and shaving cream we'd save?

Well it's Monday. This week is pretty empty except band on Thursday and a play date at our house on Friday. I do however, have mounds of laundry (still can't figure out where it all comes from) to wash and put away. My darling lovely husband has a large pile (actually many large piles) around the house to pick up. What is it with men and piles (and I'm not just talking about the kind left in the toilet) I find them everywhere!!! Hidden, on the coffee table, on the toilet seat, in the bed, on the dresser....Lonnie has to be king of piles :) I still love him though.

Baylor is up from his nap and Brody will soon follow....and we're off to the library to find new bedtime books and a dvd that we'll watch about 56 times in a row. This will be my only trip out of the house today (except walking to the mailbox) so I need to go make myself pretty :)

By the way, know anyone who wants a beagle...or two? I love my dogs dearly, but they've been super naughty, eating Baylor's food right off of his plate and peeing on the carpet IN FRONT OF ME!!!!! I want them to be happy so if you know anyone who would love them, let me know.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

God will provide

I would have to say that one of the worst feelings in the world is not being able to pay your medical bills...or any bill for that matter, off right away. The next worse feeling is feeling the stress from your husband as he opens yet another medical bill (seriously, where do these things come from!?) Granted, I feel very responsible for 95% of the medical bills in the house ( you can blame the other 5% on Brody) but I did need that biopsy to make sure I'd make it to next Christmas. Praise the Lord it came back negative, but don't you think they should say, "congrats, you don't have cancer and we'd like to pay your bill because we caused you enormous amounts of pain!" Our health care system is seriously flawed, I'm not sure who to blame, I'd just like some help with these stinkin bills.

BUT....God will provide. We've been in this boat before. Just when we have our budget figured out and we are working towards paying off things...wham! Another bill in the mail. I'd like to kick whoever sends these things......and right before Christmas?! C'mon people. BUT...God will provide. It's having the faith and courage to trust that HE will come through in tough times. I'd love prayer.....not for me, but for Lonnie. I know how stressed out money issues make him and it makes our relationship tougher and I hate seeing him in anguish about money. I have a peace about it, but I'm not the one working hard to make the money. I do however, get to be blessed to stay at home, the best gift in the entire world.

On a happier note. I took Baylor shopping today for a new coat (shhh don't tell Brody) and boots. Found the coat on sale, but the boots were crazy expensive and the toy train was much more fun. I've also finished 80% of my Christmas shopping, decorated the house, made the Christmas cards and not killed anyone in the process. Pat on the back for me :) Have a good Sunday. ....wait, it's Saturday...that's what happens when you are up six times at night!!!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Things I'm thankful for

Pie day has arrived. Actually it's not pie day until I finish cleaning, laundering and putting furniture back where it goes....then pie day can offically start. It's a sad pie day because I only get to make one pie. I am however, eating my high fiber cereal right now in preperation for the onslaught of calories to be consumed tomorrow.

Since tomorrow is Thanksgiving, I am compiling a list of things that I'm thankful for. It's more like a long sentance of thankfullness. Of Course I'm thankful for everything God has blessed me with, especially my loving husband and beautiful healthy (although sleepless) boys, for having a roof over our heads and food (even if it's mac and cheese ) to eat, for families (both sides of mine are fantastic...a little crazy, but fantastic) silicone spoonulas (they are an amazing invention people) Earplugs (for crying babies and snoring husbands) yoplait thick and creamy yogurt (that's my nickname...thick and creamy) Our trusty Corolla that will be hitting 100,000 miles soon and (knock on wood) still runs great, for baby monitors with an off switch, swiffer sweepers, Goodwill baby!, our health (minus the puking), everytime we think we can't make it through the month and God provides, for obnoxious yet loveable brothers, for living close to my mom ( I can't even begin to tell you what a blessing that is!), for soft water (we don't have it, but when I get to take a shower with soft water...silky baby, silky), my new glasses! ( I can see again) Heat (although we may need to take out a small loan or sell organs to keep the house warm this winter, I am thankful for the highway robbery) My insanly retarted cute annoying snuggly pissing dogs (yes, I love them even though I want to drop kick them 98% of the time) , For the moments like this when both boys are napping...well, Brody is crying but Baylor is napping and for this blog which has suprisingly kept me sane these past few weeks. Amen...I mean, the end. I love you all and I'm VERY THANKFUL for you!!!

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Floor=done and Turkey day is coming

Yippeeeee! I finished staining the floor this morning and the boys and I are at house to escape the fumes. Hopefully it will be dry by the time we get home tonight. We're having pizza tonight with my parent's bible study, Kort and Bri. I think my mother secretly is following us around the house cleaning up after Baylor. It's been a long time since a toddler has spent the day at her nice clean house :) Just wait, he's just begun. He's managed to find the paper shredder, remotes and escape through the sliding glass door already this morning.

Right now, Baylor is asleep in my old bed....and he's stayed there! Which happens to be a minor miracle in itself. He's on his way to big boy bed land....someday. I'm not even going to talk about Brody...just two words...five times.

Turkey day is approaching. I am mentally preparing myself for the onslaught of waistline/hair/appearance/weight comments that will be coming from my mom's side of the family. " oh, you look like you've almost lost that baby weight..." or " Do you really want to eat that?" and , " I shouldn't...I just worked out." Listen people, if I had the time, energy and the right sports bra, I would be running a marathon right now.
They don't really mean to do it, it's just in their blood. Apparently if you're not 6 feet and 135 pounds, you suck. I'm perfectly happy with my stumpiness and I will eat mashed potatoes until they come out my ears.

Tomorrow is pie day. Let the pie making fun begin.

Monday, November 19, 2007

Germs are bad

"Germs are icky, me no like germs" says Baylor. I thought we were through the woods with our stomach bug, but Lonnie came down with it Saturday night. I went OCD and proceeded to bleach any hard surface in our house in hopes that the boys won't get it. (you can pray they don't!!) Needless to say it's been a very trying weeked. I got to play nurse, mom, maid, contractor (still working on the floor!!) and cook all at once. That is what I love doing though :) No one said this mommy thing was easy.

For those of you keeping score...Brody is still waking up three-five times a night and not napping. I'm ready to burn all of the baby sleep books in a ritual fire and dance around it cursing. Any tips, prayers or hard liqour would be appreciated.

Bri, Kort's girlfriend and Kort are here for the week. I'm very excited to have another female around and to get to know her better. She is great (what I've seen so far) and Baylor has fallen in love with her already. So he'd better keep her around.

Goals for the week: Get Christmas shopping done or almost done, decorate house with holiday cheer, clean clean clean, finish the freaking floor, make a pie or two for Thanksgiving and RELAX. I know the last one will be almost utterly impossible, but I thought I'd give it a try.

We're looking forward to traveling to Mt.Vernon Illinois for Christmas to see Lonnie's family. Some of them haven't met Brody yet and we're excited to share him with them.

Friday, November 16, 2007

The Farmer in the Dell...

Those are the words I woke up (only for the 4th time) this morning to. Baylor was serenading his mounds of stuffed animals in his bed. Minus the many wakings by mini Lonnie, waking up to a singing two year old makes me smile. Brody is on this strange up every three hour schedule and night and I don't like it one bit. I want to let him cry, but I'm scared of waking the other kiddo up. "THIS TO SHALL PASS...." are the words I have to keep uttering to my sleepless body. Brody was up at 6am this morning smiling away....the positive was I got to shower before 1pm.

It's been an interesting week. Monday I came down with the nasty stomach bug and ended up in the ER with much fluids being pumped back into me. I felt better that day, it came as quickly as it left, but was awful. None of the boys have gotten it, maybe because I bleached everything in the house from top to bottom. I have a huge fear of puke...I can do poop, blood, snot, boogers, spit-up, etc....but not puke.

Tonight is GIRLS NITE.....yippeeee. I get to have a few hours without kiddos Christmas shopping with a bunch of other mommies. It may sound boring to many of you, but when you haven't left the house in a week, except the library and ER, then this is like a cruise to Alaska. Kort is coming back in town with his girlfriend Bri on Sunday. I've never met her, but he's so happy and I know he's in love so she has my approval :) I'm super excited to see them both. They haven't met Brody yet, so it should be fun. They are also helping me sand the floor...ah, slave labor is priceless.

I'm off to a play date and hopefully adult conversation.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Lonnie vs. Bambi

Score: Lonnie 1, Bambi 0......minus a headlight and dented driver side door. Praise God he wasn't driving our little Corolla or it could have been Lonnie 0, Bambi 1. He was on his way back from the regional cross country meet in Minnesota and was driving 75 on the highway in the 15 passenger van when Bambi decided to head-butt the driver's side. Luckily, no one was hurt except for the headlight. So be careful when driving at night, it's rutting season and Bambi is looking for love.

Brody was still up two times last tired!!! If I can just get him to settle back down the first waking (usually at 4 hours) he would sleep much longer. He's done it before, I know he can do it. It stinks because he's in our room and I hear every grunt, groan, toot and sniffle. I don't want to let him cry too much because he'll wake Baylor. Lonnie sleeps through anything so I'm not worried about him. I know it's a season in my life of not getting sleep, but it really does wear on you. He does give me huge smiles when I get him though, which makes waking up to feed him much more enjoyable. He got his first "haircut" last night and looks much more grown up without his crazy long flyaway side hairs. He's also starting to get fathead like his brother did :) I'll take that as a sign of intellegence.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Ode to Goodwill

Hallelujah...time to myself. Kim and Kim watched the boys this morning while I got to steal a few moments to myself to listen to adult music and drink coffee at a slow pace. It's a great deal we have going on, every Friday we meet at a different house and one mom gets to leave her kids and get the heck out of dodge for a few hours and then the next week it changes. This week was my week....believe me, I've been looking forward to it for weeks...been planning my escape. SOoooooooo where did I go? My favorite store of all time. Goodwill.

Goodwill rocks my socks off. I found a leather coat, stellar green leather purse, gap jeans, new adidas jogging pants, jcrew turtleneck, gap shirt and calvin klein shirt (oh yes, and a toy for Baylor) all for under $25 buckaroos. I don't know if people realize the treasures you can find. I could have probably spent the entire day digging and searching for bargains, but I had to get back to the boys. They were good...only one trip to the "naughty chair" for Baylor and Brody actually slept about an hour.

We came home to a package from Gramma Speidel full of fun new toys for Baylor and some clothes (Thanks so much gramma S) Baylor wouldn't take a nap without half of the cars piled high in his bed, but hey...whatever works. Lonnie gone until Saturday night.....pray for much sleep and sanity while I battle the boys alone :)

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

It's go time

Tomorrow, as I venture into the outside world (haven't been out of the house since Sunday) my husband has to suck it up and take care of not one, but BOTH boys. I have faith in him and know he can do it, but I'm still very nervous about leaving him and Brody. He tends to get distracted by the idiot box and Baylor tends to find Brody's face in these rare moments of irresponsibility. I am going to band, not to play yet, but to sort music and listen to their run through for the upcoming competition (USOpen). I miss my cornet dearly and can't seem to find a time where someone isn't sleeping or Brody isn't crying because of loud noises.
Brody is still napping like a weirdo, I wish he's condense his afternoon naps into one very long one. He is trying to roll over from back to front and is grabbing things now. It's great to gaze into his eyes and have him try to touch your face. Baylor keeps on cracking us up with his phrases and words and antics. He is so animated.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007


Now having two boys, I get to use the phrase, "the boys are ____" fill in the blank. Right now, at this glorious time, I will use the phrase, "THE BOYS ARE NAPPING!" with much joy and excitement because it happens so rarely. I know I will jinx myself now that I have uddered those marvelous words. Brody is starting to take longer naps, still with a little crying and fussing in between, but I can handle that. Baylor is still (fingers crossed) taking one nap in the afternoon between one and two hours. I tried to lay down, but it failed. I think there is a small midget inside my brain that keeps scribbling and jotting down all the things I want to, need to and haven't done. These brief moments when I get to lay down always prove to be my most creative, but unfortunaly I don't get sleep. Sleep is for the weak.
November has blown in like a angry lion. It's freeeezing in our house that we're trying to keep at 60 degrees so we don't have to take our a small loan to pay for the heating bill. The yard is covered in random recyclables, the sandbox cover, Baylor's shovel and the neighbors garabage can. Fortunatly, all of the leaves have blown into one section of the yard so it will be easy for handy man Lonnie to vaacume them up. The trees are very much naked but the grass is still green and hanging on for dear life. I love fall, but I think winter will be rearing it's ugly head soon.
The floor is still bare, BUT I did find a belt sander! I will have to evaccuate the house though when I begin, because it's soooo loud and obnoxious. I think it will take a while, but it will be nice when I'm done. My goal is to be finished sanding by Thanksgiving so when Kort comes home, he and Bri can help me finish the floor :)
So I end today with the quote to help me finish the floor, " We learn to do something by doing it. There is no other way." John Holt

Monday, November 5, 2007

oh the Floor..... I am publically apologizing for my excitement and stupidity all in one swipe. I got on a hardwood kick and decided that our nasty dog pee carpet had to go to reveal the beautiful hardwood underneath. I did some research (pulled the edges up) to find that it LOOKED good all around and would probably be the same throughout (Hello!) Sooooo WITH my husband's permission mind you, I decided to rip up the carpet during nap time. He did warn me however of the consequences and I believe the phrase, "do you know what you're getting yourself into" crossed his lips many times. But, with my stubborness and always wanting to do things RIGHT AWAY, I continued on my quest for beautiful hardwood floors. Much to my dismay (but not suprise) half way through the grueling tack strip ripping, I found a lovely 3x3 plywood square smack dab in the middle of the floor, along with tons of water damage and a few planks missing around the edges. " marriage is over" I thought. Not over, but after much barking between spouses, I realized I should have waited.
Now the fun begins.....The bad news.....I am soley responsible for sanding, stripping and re-finishing the floor with funds that I'm not sure how I will come up with. ( I heard online organ donation works) The good's not THAT bad and can be done AND I'm still married.
Sooooo if you happen to read this and want to send a care package containing a belt sander, feel free!!! Lesson: Always listen to your husband (well, most of the time)

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Coffee is my friend

Glorious sleeeeeep! Brody slept 8 hours last night (this might be a record folks) Praise the Lord!! I feel like a new woman, but I still have to have my morning cup of addiction (as my husband so lovingly calls it) I think I deserve one or two guilty pleasures right? I'm the one getting up in the middle of the night and living through thirty minute power naps. I would have to say that coffee ranks up there with chocolate, bubble baths and ten minutes of peace and girly magazines.
Last night Lonnie and I took the boys to Connect, a group for young couples in our church with young kids. It was so much fun and Baylor behaved himself so well! If you give him new toys, he could sit there for hours entertaining himself. I'm starting to see myself in him a lot....very independant and strong willed. I'm sure I'll kick myself later for that strong willed part, but just think....a strong willed, independant spitfire on fire for the Lord someday. That is my ultimate goal with these boys. To raise two (or more...we'll see) strong, resectful, loving, polite boys who love the Lord more than anything in the world. What a great goal, eh? I hope I can do it.

Friday, November 2, 2007

Why my boys don't sleep....

Okay, let's try this again.....the blog thing. After much anticipation from adoring fans of the blog, I will try this blog again...while listening to the screams of Brody in protest of his nap. I think to myself, " what a great subject for my first blog!" What subject you ask? MY KIDS DON'T SLEEP!!!!
As the proud mother of two amazing boys, Baylor (2) and Brody (3 months) I am still confused as ever as to why my boys don't like sleeping. I've read every book, article, talked with every mom and grandma and scoured the internet in search of what I'm doing wrong. When Baylor was a baby, he took 30 minute naps and now Brody is following in the footstepts of his brother!! They just don't want to sleep, they want to be awake and enjoying life I guess. I guess I'll have to wait in great anticipation for the day when they decide that sleeping is cool. Until then, I sit by piles of hair, that I'm pulling out with frustration!!!!