I've prayed for a peace about a decision weather or not to add to our family but what I really want is a clear sign from God...maybe a post-it note with a yes or no on it? Maybe an email? Why does going from one to two seem so easy but two to three crazy hard?
I know children are a blessing from God and I count my blessings every day. I also know that I may not be able to handle one more. I want to focus my time and energy on the two blessings that God has already blessed me with. My only fear is to feel regret when both of my boys have left the house and we look at each other and wish we had another child.
Some families choose no children, others one or two or even nine. I have to realize that making babies isn't a contest and realize what is best for our family. I am thankful that I can have children and I don't take that gift for granted. That's not to say that we won't change our minds in a few months when Brody decides to stop licking shopping cart handles and streaking. I know God has a way of letting his will be known and a peace soon to follow. You know the saying, "walk by faith, not by sight?" It just goes to prove if we walked by sight we would be done for sure.....and so is anyone who meets Brody the energizer bunny. The door is not closed for good, but I am enjoying the time I have with my two boys.