I know, I'm sorry for talking about myself and things not related to my two marvelous children, but I just can't help it. I have aspiring dreams of being a writer. You can stop laughing now. Really, it's Friday and I have two sleeping children. That's right, you heard correctly. I finally got both yahoos to sleep (they were so tired!) and I have finished all other cleaning and laundry so I am sucked into the computer. I don't really have anything monumental to speak of so I think I'm going to talk about myself.....confessions of a housewife. Feel free to exit at any time.
I didn't used to be so funny. I know what you're thinking...man, she's arrogant (see #3 on most irritating things to me) she's not even that funny. Well, I think that sometimes.....once in a blue moon.....I have made you laugh out loud and/or snort some sort of fluid out of your nose. I think that constitutes as being funny doesn't it? Unfortunately a lot of my humor lies within sarcasm and that is commandment #11, Thall Shall not be Sarcastic...or else. I think having children also makes you see the humor in everyday situations.....like poo flinging, now that's funny.
I struggle with depression and insomnia. There...the cat is out of the bag. I used to have no sympathy for such a problem but after experiencing it after Baylor was born, I have no room to talk. It's a touchy subject in our family as it is in many other families but I really feel that it's important to talk about. There are many arguments that say Christians shouldn't be depressed, they should have the joy of the Lord....and I want to box them in the ears. Valid point, very much so, but it's also chemical and drugs are sometimes the only option. I do however refuse to use it as an excuse. The insomnia....well, I can't fall asleep without the aid of drugs and I wish I could change that but I can't. I love sleep. End of story.
I love my husband dearly but get a little bitter and jealous when he goes to work or on a trip (like he is now) I am selfish sometimes and love time to myself. Time to do my artwork, read or just shop without chasing yahoos out of the display cases. I hate that I feel this way because it is not cool. Not at all. I also get a tad envious when I hear of people taking trips and going on couples weekends. I know it's not in our plans financially and because of Lonnie's weird schedule right now but I can't help thinking how much fun trips would be! I'll get over it. It also has nothing to do with Lonnie's work, because I am so proud of him and how hard he works and content with where we are right now (okay, sometimes I'm not....but I'm working on it)
I wouldn't mind slightly larger ta ta's. It's never going to happen, but that doesn't mean I can't dream. I will work on being content with the baby ones God gave me.
Sorry. I had to lighten the air a little.
Now that you have rolled your eyes about 123 times, I will let you go in peace. I hope you still think I'm cool enough to continue reading.
Have a wonderful weekend.